NOT IN YOUR LIFE!

It's just a pity that you wouldn't be able to see me go through my morning rituals. I would nestle a mug of coffee in my hands and ascend towards a state of nothingness for the duration of my caffeine consumption. You would have had the chance to tease me for this oddity and we would both laugh about it… Too bad, there won't be any laughter for you.

After which, I would listen to the music that would best fit my mood at that moment. Had you been there, I would be humming along some blissfully romantic love song that would express how wonderful life is with you in it and how you bring out the best in me… Sadly, you won't be able to witness anything like that and there will be no music for you.

I doubt if anyone whom we mutually know would even tell you how I enjoy every minute that we spend time together because there was and there won't be such time anymore. You won't get to experience how to be loved and be cared for the way that only I know how. There won't be any show of special attention that only my passionate heart can provide. None of these will ever happen to you…. Not in your life!

It would've been good for you if I could include you in my prayers every hour of the day and only wish great things to come your way. But then, I guess you would just have to look out for yourself.

Nothing could be more sincere and intense than the devotion that I could willingly offer. Unfortunately, you would just have to settle for someone who is obviously less.

For a moment, try to imagine living without all these… without me. Then, imagine how I feel, right now, going through my own life … with the thought that I could never be loved by you.